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Beginnings and Endings

Without question fall is the season of change. To loose the idyllic warm womb of summer is a bit of a shocker, like any about-face. More so than spring, autumn steals then announces the end of summer even before the official seasonal equinox. It marks the beginning of something for many like school, possibly a move, new friends and situations. September is also a month of getting back to work, starting a new projects, gardens dying and putting things to bed for winter- suffice it to say change is the common denominator for all things in this colourful yet chaotic season.

If you are feeling nervous anticipation, coupled with a feeling of dread at this time, you are not alone. Like the gardens burgeoning with produce September’s monopoly on the month of most change, has likely stymied all your confidence and certainty. Change is a tricky state. On the one hand we often look forward to bursts of newness but only if we have articulated the details and outcome ourselves. Many of the big changes in life like starting a new job, school, relationship or living in a new city have no predictable parameters, which can throw us into a difficult tailspin. We intellectually attempt to control the change, while emotionally we will inevitably face our deepest fears and obstacles. With any significant change we are thrown right out of our comfort zone and the nervous system does not like that.

Last week I had a major change that I had not expected nor planned on. Someone whom has been with me for a long time was suddenly plucked right out of my life due to a unfortunate situation. I have been working intimately with this person for many years and although the betrayal has been hard to deal with, the more difficult piece was my emotions having to come to terms with this sudden change. I was experiencing this upset on all levels of my being. Our emotions are primitive slow moving dinosaurs and do not do well with abrupt change.

I found myself resisting through feelings of defeat, I became plagued with wanting to know why – and justifying reasons why I should give up. This went along with a lack of faith in myself and in the process that I had been thrust into. I felt at times hopeless, cynical toward all people and indifferent as to my future and my goals. I recognize this as a dangerous place if given the opportunity to run rampant and I also recognized my need to process the big change.

Luckily through the years I have seen the importance of giving time and space to some of these deeper and more intense processes. Most importantly staying in present time, allowed me the capacity to be with ‘what is’ and to reflect on my feelings now, otherwise the mind becomes obsessed with ‘what-was’. With that willingness I am sure that I was afforded the insight, just today that spring-boarded me out of the ‘Why? How? What? which will drive one crazy – toward the deeper truth of this necessary change. The fact is, there was damage being done that I was too blind to see or to complacent to act on due to my comfort. I may never have seen or done a thing till it was too late – without the universe orchestrating the change.

As many have said before me, change is the only true constant in life. It is something we most certainly need to learn to live with and ideally master for any peace of mind. We will all be faced with change; and the fear of the unknown is real – especially for the primitive nervous system and its delicate ego that seeks to protect its’ identity and the status quo, at all costs.

Our job is to reassure the emotional body through grounding and calming techniques, as we forge forward. We need to embrace grace and grit as our go-to when the going gets tough and things feel daunting. Don’t look back, except to gather awareness and insights. Learn to build resilience and tenacity through ‘mini’ acts of courage – especially in the eye-of-the-storm; this will keep you strong in the face of catastrophic or casual change and enable you to harvest its rewards. Perhaps this is what is truly meant by blind faith, you never really know what the outcome will be, yet you must put one foot in front of the other to get through the jungle. As the great mystic Rumi said: “Take the Pearl, leave the Shell behind.”

May your harvest be bountiful,

Love Mary-Jo

Published by Mary-Jo

I am passionate about diversity, inclusion, sustainability and community. Having raised my children in a small B.C. town as a single parent, I relied on the community, my resourcefulness and the land to sustain us. We developed a market farm,built a cafe and catering business that utilized the produce, local farmers and families to thrive. As a Waldorf school parent I became experienced in biodiversity, edible landscapes and community engagement. I gained substantial skills in leadership, facilitation, project management, communication through teaching yoga and running various business's. My role as a facilitator and trainer to individuals seeking to become a yoga teacher- whom never thought that they could stand in front of a room and speak in public, gave me insight into human nature and coaching. In addition to designing and building businesses - cafés, yoga studios and national training programs, I am a student of Social Development & Social Psychology and understand the complexity and importance of social engagement. I can handle with grace most any situation, having encountered a disability later in life. Consequent to becoming disabled and through advocacy and providing peer support I have trained and acquired extensive exposure and understanding of UN principles on disability, The Human Rights objectives, theories and principles of Universal Design and the various challenges and obstacles for those affected and the relationship to various stakeholders. After 30 years of teaching yoga, my spinal cord injury and subsequent sabbatical has allowed for the integration of my yoga and more in-depth study of the Healing Arts. I have had the fortune of working with some of the best in the field of rehabilitation, Somatic Experiencing and manual therapy including Emilie Conrad, Mark Finch, Judy Russel, Rod Stryker, Carolyn Myss, Ana Forest, & Tim Miller, Susan Harper, Mariah Moser, Herta Buller and Nature.