Mary-Jo’s enlightened dictation for the day.
It’s ironic that my January newsletter talks about change and how we need to surrender to that. As I wake up more and more each day from my surgeries I am poignantly aware of the words that I spoke. On a level deeper then perhaps I ever conceived. The only way to be here is to be in total acceptance, peace and love. Any alteration of that on the minutest scale is instantly experienced in its depletion. The amazing journey before me is the culmination of all that I teach, all that I understand to be the truth. This is the true yoga.
In my process to re-awaken my body, that lies limp, is to visualize. I began visualizing the moment I became conscious. I would see my breath filling my entire lungs. And very soon my lungs were breathing. The next thing I began doing while I lay there was to imagine I was walking and swinging my arms. I visualize squeezing my legs together in as if in mula bhanda. I see others making contact and movement with my limbs, an obstacle I have yet to accomplish. As I see this it would become very easy for me to become discouraged. But in the incredibly humbling place of this position I am continually allowing possibility. Many of the health care workers, blessed in their grace and compassion, maintain a very neutral position in cases such as mine. At first perhaps I was in denial that this would not be me. Yet this is what is right now. My process is living in that paradox that I often speak to you off, where one is constantly present with what is. At the same time in the potentiality of what can be. That very delicate and mystical place is the place of ultimate surrender. This place is not an easy place for any of us, be it surrendering to our egos, to our minds, our judgments, our projections, or even our personalities. Surrendering to this is a place in which we become fully exposed. It may not be that you feel the need for any of this surrender, because the opposite is often more encouraged. My suggestion to you all is to at least for a moment of your day allow yourself to lay in peace and completely surrender.
Imagine life holding you up. Imagine the breath infusing you with its force, and prana. Rather then taking a breath, imagine for a few moments that there is absolutely nothing that you have to do. Let everything just be. As you come back cherish each precious movement of your gifted body. Cherish yourself, just as you are in this moment. For I cherish you, and so does the divine. This I know.
With Love, Mary-Jo