I have been meaning to reach out to all of you, in response to your cards, prayers, contributions and support. Normally, this would be an effortless gesture, as my way of being in the world. However that is not the case presently as you all know.
My body is close to completely out of my control, so I must express myself almost entirely from my neck up. This may be a contradiction, as I’ve always believed that we are not to be held captive by our minds. This paradox is a curious and challenging place to reside. Nonetheless, it is my home at this time. Making peace with this home is a moment-to-moment exercise in non-attchment of the truest sense. I don’t mean to be nobel or egotistical in that statement by infering that this is either easy or natural, because I am “Mary-Jo.” Quite the contrary, the obstacles are perhaps more indulged because of peoples’ and my own perceptions of who Mary-jo is. I am in this capacity like every other human: afraid, uncertain,perplexed, and subject to forces beyond my control. The grace that I am afforded is my unflinching faith and deep sense of divine order (and no patience for the monkey on the back!) A brief word about my rehab, which I guess some of you may be curious about. It is not actually about me. It is about the people who I am working with, until this time I had no concept of this world and of the service, devotion, and dedication that the people involved express. I have never in my life experienced this level of care and service in any of my able body endevours. This strikes me as possibly one of the most fascinating components of this journey. Kate Bridger elequently expressed in an email to me, how easy it is for us to fall back into our comfort zones and routines, post various enlightening events. This is a dangerous place, because we lose the devotion of our hearts to serving one another. We become numb, and self centered directly around our own concerns. If we could all care for one another, and afford each other the dignity and respect that we all so rightly deserve, we would be expressing divine grace in its most realistic form. I hope that you are all doing well, and enjoying life. I need you, and appreciate all that you are offering at this time. Please continue to hold the girls and me in your prayers, as you so graciously have.