not to follow my dreams, but to chase them
To Mary-Jo on Mothers Day:
Every day I watch you persevere, accomplish and overcome. Life for you right now isn’t a walk in the park. It’s a wheel down a road where you can feel every hill push you back and gravity tumble you foreword. You embrace each challenge as an opportunity for greatness. You act towards each and every individual with compassion and generosity. On the mat in physio you push yourself harder then all extremes. You set your sight on a goal physically or mentally and you attain. You have so successfully surrendered, to trust and be humble, about the need in which this physical state has rendered you. And never once have you questioned any of it
These past months have been nothing short of a roller coaster ride. Caught in the insanity between laughter and tears, I often find myself wondering just how you do it. How do you manage to so peacefully stay in a place of such grace and love where anger and remorse live next door? When I find myself irritated or fearful I look to you for an example of solitude and patience. When Katelynn was recovering from her Tonsillectomy you were by her side. You came to our apartment to see us because we couldn’t make it to see you. In all of the craziness of the accident and the time afterwards, you have never failed to be the most amazing mother. Always present to our needs and always willing to sacrifice and compromise to make sure we were provided for abundantly, happy, and safe. You have raised Katelynn and I with the most wisdom, love, freedom, adventures and strength then we ever could have asked for at the gates of heaven.
In my dreams you walk, effortlessly, as if I could wake up and have my dreams be real. Letting go of you physically, while believing in you, has been the greatest challenge. My mind tells me that the impossible will never be possible. I know the constant banter in my mind is simply a wasteful conversation, a stem of fear and mistrust. As I have come to realize impossibility is an illusion. Letting go is a conscious action, which we must practice. Each moment is another opportunity for acceptance. I believe in you in every moment. In every moment I hold you in the greatest love of all.
You have taught me not to follow my dreams, but to chase them. Thank You Mama.