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Another World

It has been such a great week from so many perspectives.

Today the sun breaks through the overcast sky with sweet clarity and warmth. The cherry blossoms are soft in their pink tones and abundant on the streets of this cosmopolitan city. The wind blows the blossoms and moves the four big fir trees outside my window. These stately trees have become my guardians, mentors and examples. I observe them from my chair and allow my body and mind to replicate their movement, strength and willingness. Today the sun breaks through the overcast sky with sweet clarity and warmth. The cherry blossoms are soft in their pink tones and abundant on the streets of this cosmopolitan city. The wind blows the blossoms and moves the four big fir trees outside my window. These stately trees have become my guardians, mentors and examples. I observe them from my chair and allow my body and mind to replicate their movement, strength and willingness. It has been such a great week from so many perspectives. I have to curiously laugh at some of the stories I have heard of my progress, and gratefully smile at all of the interest and continued support. Part of the mis-information is due to the fact that I am so busy. I have not had enough time to put new and current photos up on the website. I am here to tell you I’m looking great and feeling awesome. Many remarks from visitors reflect surprise that I actually “look” well. The surprise is not a surprise at all when you consider all of the components that I am exercising and allowing into my life. The web of love that I mentioned earlier, continues to sustain and inspire me, more then any other aspect, especially that of my daughters. I would like to mention some other aspects which are contributing to this fascinating healing journey.

My health regime prior to my injury is the basis on which I derive the extra strength and sustenance that I need. However, I am also augmenting my
rehabilitation here at GF Strong with so many alternative therapies. I have been blessed and inspired with many gifted healers. I am continually in awe
of the human body and the intricate body-mind system, within which the consciousness lives. Since my injury this body-mind connection has taken on
a whole new meaning. I am excited to share this fascinating perspective with others, on and off of the mat.

In simplified terms, the ability to be absolutely present within my physical limitations, has allowed my mind to hold the movement, feeling, and mobility that my body lacks. Finding this place in my imagination, breath and soul would not be accessible had I not been able to come to complete acceptance and love of the present state of my body. My body on its own, is still unable to physically take me to these places.

As I sit in the morning looking out at the beautiful fir trees I do my pranyama, yoga and meditation. Taking the movement into my limbs through my senses. I also work diligently through the day at what movement I have and promote it through new modes of awareness and experience. My physiotherapist, Charmaine, is particularly skilled at inspiring me to learn how to move beyond the paralysis and into new vistas of my body. I remember in ICU deliberately imagining a cobra push up and yesterday on the physiotherapy mat, the snake in my spine wriggled. Until next time, peace
and love.

Mary-Jo

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The Light

I only wish to convey the reality of every aspect. Not solely the ones that involve just the paralysis in her external limbs.

Amongst a world of dimly lit waiting rooms we find ourselves basing perceptions and information on what is held captive in hospital files. Spinal Cord Injury doesn¡¦t just include paralysis of the limbs; most recipients of this injury also lack the control of all other motor and organ functions below the level of injury. With nothing to hide, a very unglamorous part of this experience surfaces. Bowel function and Foley Catheters (urine drainage) are just as much a part of our day as an afternoon tea in the garden. This being said one can become so easily discouraged, with the lack of control, that in the past was almost subconscious. I bring this to your awareness not because I wish to spoil your appetite, but because the horizon is so broad as to all of the challenges and complications. I only wish to convey the reality of every aspect. Not solely the ones that involve just the paralysis in her external limbs. When I arrived at the hospital yesterday morning MJ was feeling a little discouraged and down. The inability to perform and control such a simple task as going to the bathroom wears on your dignity. Nevertheless we went about our day accomplishing banking, physio, pulleys, web logs, massages, a shower and visitors. Throughout the day the reality of the lack of control dissipates with the morning chill, and we move forward. Her smile brightens and she is constantly willing and eager to relish in gratitude.

As soon as we find the ability to over come our discouragement we open up a flood-way of motivation. By making that choice we focus on the positive. Honestly I have never met another soul who is a greater advocate for positive action then MJ. She has the most amazing talent of making the sun shine on the gloomiest of days. And when that sun isn’t willing to shine she rejoices in the fact that it’s raining. I put my hands together for her again and again because she has set an amazing example of how much your attitude, thoughts, and beliefs affect the quality of every moment in your life. She is living example that if we take the choice of positive action and gratitude, it leaves us limitless and free to accomplish whatever it is we set out to do.

Her physio is going well and today we had a meeting with her surgeon from VGH. He is very pleased with the amount of movement she is getting back in her arms and wrists. He is also extremely impressed with the amount of strength she has. Her spine was X-rayed and everything healed quite perfectly, she has full mobility in her neck. She has been spending all of her time in her manual wheelchair and she is becoming quite the all-star at getting around. We have been taking her out to lunch; it is so liberating to have her in the ¡§real world¡¨ again.

Somewhere in the dark there’s always a switch of light, it doesn’t always reside right beside the doorway. Sometimes we have to stumble and trip and find our way over to the switch. But it’s always there and its only up to you to turn it on.